In The Scary Places, God Is There!

I remember years ago when I was driving my car and I instantly went blind except for my side vision.

I remember the time years ago when I was an actor in a week long VBS evangelistic outreach theatrical production.  Each day built on the day before, helping people to understand the gospel in a creative way and the last day we would give a full presentation of the gospel and invite people to give their lives to Jesus.

I was driving with my little girls to the church to rehearse the last day’s episode when all of a sudden I lost all of my vision except for my peripheral edge of my sight.

I stayed calm and began to cry out to Jesus for help.  I pulled to the side of the road and immediately called my pastor’s house to tell them.  Our pastor was the co-lead in the production.

Kathy, his wife answered the phone.  I told her what was going on and she said she would immediately get on her knees and pray.

I was still close to home so I decided to turn the car around and drive back to my house.  Tears ran down my face as I quietly cried.  I did not want my girls to be frightened so I cried silently.

As I drove looking through the edge of my eye sight all of a sudden I realized my full sight had been restored!  The Lord had answered our prayers!  So I turned my car around and went to rehearsal.

The next day I went to see my internal medicine doctor and he referred me to a neurosurgeon to be checked immediately. 

The doctor checked me and told me that I must have a blood clot in my brain because of the results of his tests and I needed to be immediately rushed to the hospital for a brain scan.

My husband came and got me and the girls and whisked me off to the hospital where I was told they were going to put dye in my brain which totally freaked me out on the inside.

I was really afraid of what I would feel like as the dye went through my brain.  I fought going into an anxiety attack and told God that I wanted to glorify Him through this whole experience but unless He showed up and helped me I wouldn’t be able to do it.

I had grabbed a book on my way out to the hospital and randomly opened it up as I waited the 4 minutes it took for them to whisk me off to get dye in my brain.  Everyone was very aware that I was in a life and death situation and rushed as fast as they could to take care of me.

I opened the book to a spot where the author was explaining the vastness of God.  How the vast beauty and glory of the universe revealed how huge and powerful our God is.

I felt the Father say to me, “If I can hold this huge, magnificent universe together do you not think I can take care of you?”

I took a big breath and rested then knowing He was with me and I had nothing to fear.

As they put my IV in and started the dye and slid my head into the machine the presence of God descended upon me in great power and beauty!  I was so caught up into His glory that I had no thought of what was going on around me. 

Tears of joy ran down my face as I laid there in His presence.  The technician ran over to me to see if I was okay.

I said, “I am more than okay.  God is here with me!”

The brain scan showed everything was fine.  What ever caused my short term blindness had been healed!  Praise Jesus!

I went to the church and we performed the last show and many people were deeply touched.  All glory to God alone!

He will be there for you in the hard, scary places if you seek to glorify Him through what you are going through!

I see now how He will be with those who are called to be martyred.  He will wrap them in His all powerful wings and shelter them in His love as they go through their last act of loving obedience to Him on the earth.

There is nothing to fear.  Our all powerful, all loving, God is here!